It’s been a rough few weeks. Exhaustion slowly creeping into my mind and body, building up to a feeling of near incapacitation. Body aching and stiff. Breathing shallow and high in the chest, unable to fully fill my lungs.
My mind full of thoughts about all the things I have to do, the people I need to see, the multitude of my real and imagined responsibilities piling up and the pressure of my perception of the demands on me from the expectations of others. Quite simply a mind in overwhelm.
Eyes struggling to stay open through the long day at the computer whilst at work in the city and then, the long drive home as the light fades into darkness. Eyes playing tricks with the road signs and lane markings. Burning with dryness. Screaming at me to close them even just for a moment.
Suddenly I cry out “STOP THESE THOUGHTS!”
And I keep driving because the thought of home begins to fill me with calm and I know I will make it home safely.
Home at last, I pour my tired body onto the couch. And rest a while, grateful I made it safely.
I’m too tired to prepare and eat a meal so I boil the kettle and brew a blend of calming herbs to help relieve the tension still held in my mind and body.
I climb into bed and sink into the welcome comfort of my mattress and pillow. Sleep eventually comes but is broken by the hammerings of the gale force winds on my windows that seem to match the ramblings of my troubled mind.
The new day arrives – clear and bright and with it the realisation dawns on me that all this stress and exhaustion and pain is the result of me throwing myself down yet another rabbit hole of possibility.
And getting lost in a warren of fantasies and fears.
So very far from home.
Oh! how great the relief to come back into the safe, secure space of this present moment. I breathe deeply into my belly and stretch my arms up to the sky in wonder at the power of simply being here in this precious moment. Witnessing the dawn sky and feeling the power within me of appreciation and joy at this beautiful sight.
Turning my attention within to the gentle, tingling sensations of life force in every part of my body, I feel myself reconnecting to the joy of my true nature. To the Love that is of Divine origin radiating out from the centre of my heart and touching everything with its beauty and simplicity and acceptance.
As painful as it was, what a blessing to have this reminder of the power of thoughts to destroy the calm and peace of my whole being.
The realisation sinks in that thoughts alone cannot be relied on. Thoughts cannot give us the true peace of mind we seek.
Only our deep connection to the profound Love within each of us is reliable. And it is only from this place of Love that we receive reliable answers to our questions.
May your anxieties and fears dissolve back into the void of your imaginings from whence they came.
May your loving heart be your only guide.
May you be secure in the knowledge that your heart is Divinely inspired and completely trustworthy.
May you rest in the peace and love of your true nature.